life= AM SO DONE WITH YOU

my heart is slowly dying but surely. all this heartache is too much to bear. wish their was a door marked exit for me to crawl to. There must be a place better than where we at. This moment of struggles, sadness and annoyance seems to last a life time. Im just looking for a way out. we quarrel but what is that going to solve? its becoming an everyday lifestyle but this is not what I signed up for. This feeling of being trapped and not having anyway out is what is killing me more. I'm not one to turn to bad habits and quick fixes but am afraid that time is coming soon. Really wish God has a way out for me... also my family. I always thought keeping my life simple would help me not run into big problems but I was wrong. At any point of time in life can throw you into a hole. It don't matter whether you're on top, middle or bottom. Guess we just have to play the game smart and deadly. Anyone got any better options for me. My ears are open to hear them.

Hard Times

So we been going thru a lot of things lately. Dad has been out of the country for a while now. Dad leaving was one of the hardest things have ever gone thru in my life. The adjustment took a great toll on me and my mom more than anyone else. We have been trying to move on and live but we were not ready for the change. Life sure is hard but to me its seems like every time I take a step forward, I fall back 10 steps.  so on top of us getting better jobs to afford the house we are living in, trying to fix up cars that keep breaking down due to the fact that they are old and the weather has been terribly cold, we still don't got it together. Dad isn't coming back anytime soon. I can't even go to school anymore, my sis isn't in school either.
This has just been really hard on us. It has put so much stress on us and poor health on my mother that we are not thinking straight for ourselves. Been praying to find a way out of this but there is just so much negativity around that nothing good is coming around. Last night we got news that our dearest uncle, my moms youngest brother had just passed away and being in a stumble that we are in right now, nobody is holding themselves together. The only reason why am writing this is too get to my almost happy place. Writing gives me a peace of mind and takes me to a world of my own. I wish someone could tell me how to get out of this successfully since every time I try to get out, I get sucked back in.
HOW THE HECK DO PPL DO THIS!!!!