Life and it's struggles

"Life is the art of drawing without the eraser". Whoever came up with the quote above understands the most about life. It's a play field but once you make a mistake there is no going back only you choose to stay strong and move forward or be weak and stand still. Took a walk this morning while listening to jhene aiko and I think it turned into some meditation time, but by the end of the walk I felt so good and ready to conquer the day. To all of us struggling with life out here in the world, don't give up, find a way to get past it or to push thru wherever it is.  Comment down below if you need someone to pray for you or just some encouraging words of wisdom, we all need it from time to time or all the time.

Casual OOTD for Cinco de Mayo

Happy Cinco de Mayo it was. Hope everyone enjoyed some good food and family. I wanted to keep it simple but sexy even thou my body is not up there, once in a while I unlock the beast lol. Here are the outfit pics. COMMENT for other things I should do on this blog. GOD BLESS YALL! click link below to get the sandals.
 http://www.justfab.com/invite/kenyandime/

LEGGINGS- WALMART 

TOPS- FOREVER 21

SANDALS- JUSTFAB.COM

Broddie time OOTD/ short haircuts

Hey loves, today am bringing you an ootd inspired by my dear brother and my hair cut. This might sound a lil confusing but lately i have been envying my lil brothers closet. I used to be the one inspiring him to dress better but it seems the teacher has become the student. from now on am going to be using him to show a guy prospect in fashion  while I  still represent the ladies as usual. ok so less talk let me show you.

Sandals- Justfab

shoes-puma

Pants- Pacsun

Shirts- Forever 21 Men

Shoes- Justfab

Tights- Ebay

OOTD/ NIGHT OUT IN THE CITY/ PARTY FLOW

Hello lovely people!!!! so tonight am gonna party like my life depends on it. I'm not really a party animal but once in a while my inner goddess comes out to party and baby let me tell you even the twerk team ain't got nothing on me lol. Jk but for really though everyone needs to get loose once in a while just don't take it too far. Here are some pics of my outfit. The top and skirt are from aliexpress. They were nice and cheap lol $10. They came in separate with marching top and bottom but I like to miss match them once in awhile so its not like am wearing the same thing over and over. shoes are from rainbows also cheap $15. comment down below if you want to see more night time OOTNs.

bathroom pics

Relationships/late night thoughts

what kind of relationship do we really deserve? Have you ever gotten to the point where you ask yourself that question? well today I have come to answer that question and hopefully get other opinions on it. At the moment I wrote this, I had just talked to an ex potential boyfriend cutting him off from ever becoming one just from a repetition of things he does that annoy and can't be tolerated in my book. now most of you might start thinking why am going hard on a guy that you're not dating? Because I like to know them very well in different scenarios before putting myself in a hot sit. I'm all about the friendship first before anything else rule.

story time. so it started out like this, a girl walks into Walmart, a man stops her gives her a compliment then asks for her number after a few awkward lines of conversation. girl doesn't think the man is handsome for her taste but also does not rudely make him feel rejected. The girl observes every little aspect from the way he talks to the way he opens the door for the lady at the door. girl sees his nice car even thou he doesn't know she sees her. Girl goes home, boy texts girl they start talking, girl realizes the boy is legit qualified as a man she wants in life but the only thing is, she is not attracted to him. 

reality check! girl starts thinking how this is happening, how he can be so perfect but miss that one thing, she start discouraging herself, her goals, standards. Its the middle of the night and she can't sleep then she gets a text from the guy she was talking to who definitely has the looks and the charm but nothing else she wants a man to have yet she tries to give this douche bag a chance and leave the not so attractive guy with a well put together live (shit together) a chance. 

Girl started thinking putting pieces together and realizes her life goals missions people she wanted to be surrounded with have changed. She then starts asking herself all these questions about life, relationships and the fucking future she had dreamt of. since she mainly focused on relationships from all that realization, she dumps mr good looks with no future plans but still does not bring mr  unattractive with a bright future to board. 

Although this might be a sad turn out, girl realizes the ppl that she surrounded herself with had affected the bright future and goals she was chasing. She had just slowly settling down for less until mr unattractive came by and opened her eyes to what she could still get to achieve. 

in this case, we are talking about a girls whose standards were so high and well set but the people she surrounded herself with had low standards or were starting not to care so much for them that she also  fell into the pressure to follow the crowd. It was until she got a rude awakening of the situation she was getting herself into and that whatever she had before could still be as she wanted that she got back on track. Even thou it feels like she is now back to zero, its better than where she was headed to settle below zero.

it might sound like a metaphor... my brain does this at night. comment down if you ever feel this way or its just me stuck in the struggle.

How to Manage Stress pt 1

We live in a world where there is just soo much going on that many tend to forget about themselves and their health.

what am getting at is, we all deserve some happiness. To start why don't we start with smiling a little. Did you know that a fake smile and a real smile create the same effect in your body. Your body can't differentiate the difference between them two. So no matter how much pain or anger push out that fake smile it will do you some good. This is has been proved by research. IT AIN'T ALL BULLS***


They don't say laughter is the best medicine for nothing.  why do you think children are so much happier. They laugh at least 400 times a day while adults average 15 laughs a day. Most people including me always say how free childhood was and no worries with bills and stress. what if we just started by taking some time and atleast try and smile or laugh as much as possible thru the day. That we make a difference.

I'm not talking about just randomly bursting out a laugh but watch a comedy if you have free time, take a sec and go on twitter or instagram and read some funny memes.

There is just so many places or ideas that can make people happy.

let me know if this helped so I can write more into this blog.

life= AM SO DONE WITH YOU

my heart is slowly dying but surely. all this heartache is too much to bear. wish their was a door marked exit for me to crawl to. There must be a place better than where we at. This moment of struggles, sadness and annoyance seems to last a life time. Im just looking for a way out. we quarrel but what is that going to solve? its becoming an everyday lifestyle but this is not what I signed up for. This feeling of being trapped and not having anyway out is what is killing me more. I'm not one to turn to bad habits and quick fixes but am afraid that time is coming soon. Really wish God has a way out for me... also my family. I always thought keeping my life simple would help me not run into big problems but I was wrong. At any point of time in life can throw you into a hole. It don't matter whether you're on top, middle or bottom. Guess we just have to play the game smart and deadly. Anyone got any better options for me. My ears are open to hear them.

Dream big

once upon a time, there was a girl stack at home due to a snow storm so she decided to tell her life story to the world thru a blog. WELL now that I got you started, here it goes. The year 1992 a girl was born. she was the first child to two loving parents. The world she was born two seemed very harsh to the outsiders but normal to the people living in it. This girl as any first borns in this area was loved very much but little did she know the responsibilities that will come later on in her life due to the fact that she was the first born child. She was a very odd, well different looking child. That made her a lot more known to the society than the normal. The parents didn't help with that since they also seemed to know almost everyone she can recall. It wasn't all bad for a little child to be loved and known her cute deformities at the moment but as she grew up, thats all she was ever reminded off. The love from her parents is what helped her forget of her short comings. God was a big factor for this young lady and when I say miracles happen, I mean it. Just to finish off this clip of a story, the deformities that she was living with started to disappear slowly as she grew up.

FOR MORE ON THIS STORY CONTINUATION STAY TUNE

soooo thankful for God's blessings

I have had not such a great life but it has been a good ride so far. I believe everything happens for a reason we just have to be strong and take the bull by the horns and enjoy the ride. Anyways just so appreciative for the people in my life and for the blessings and guidance from the Most High. We all go through tough times and sometimes we forget to thanks God for those good times we had. Remember He is the one who guides us and helps us through it all so through the good and the bad lets remember to go to Him. I know I forget a lot and came to figure out the more I stay away from God, the more stress, the more problems and worries that come with everything that gets on my way. All I know, I wouldn't be who I am today without His blessings. Hope everyone has a wonderful year and let me know what you all do to stay humble and thankful in your daily lives on google+.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

Halooo... Happy New Year everyone. I had the craziest new years get together but the outcome was still fun. So my friends and I happy planned to go to DC this year for new years parties. Everything was set, new years eve we drive up to get ready for the night of surprise and fun. We were trying to be spontaneous and not decide our destination for the night, the only thing we were sure of was a place to spend the night or morning, where we could crash at before our journey back home. To get to the point, we ended up not going out and instead having friends and there friends come to us for a party that we called a "new years get together" people came brought many drinks of all sorts and food. we started playing games... music, dancing and some people disappeared for a while then came back. lots of pics were taken except I forgot my most dear camera cause a friend borrowed it and hadn't given it back. Over all the craziness of people passing out from either drinking dancing or eating too much, I enjoyed laughing at all of it and the turn out of the whole thin. Got to see my 2 best friends but one was missing and all the people that came I knew or had seen so it was like a friend reunion. It turns out that the start of this is was a great one. Just hoping to end the year in the same gratitude as I have at the moment. God Bless Everyone and may this year be bountiful to each and everyone of you.
HERE ARE SOME PICS FROM THE SHAKING ASS GET TOGETHER!! LOL

Holiday Parties/ black/gold attire

My girls and I last night at a friends birthday party/ end of the year party. everything I wore except my shows was from H&M. Shoes from Traffic.

Diary One Virginity Age and The Wolrd

Halooo.... I don't know if its everyone or just me but bedtime to me is thoughts time. Why is it that when your body wants to rest thats when the mind is wide awake. You can have a thoughts running through and analyze all of them breaking them down right when you need to not think but sleep.

Lately I have been feeling some tupe of way.  To begin with this thoughts of mine, I have to let you know that am struggling with life in general but mainly my sexual status. I am a virgin. At 21 years old in this day and age, people don't really think its possible to be and have been cellibate for this long.
The challenges with being a virgin in the 21st century is the fact that you feel like you're the only one, an outcast and there is constant force of either peer pressure and media influence that you have to fight.
I can say have come close to failing myself many times but what has held me up is having a best friend who is just like me in that department.  It's crazy that even friends who have known you for so long don't want to believe on the fact that they lost their virginity so their is no way I still have mine.
Since I was young, my parents always told me stories of how things are to be and what they have done themselves to get to where they had. I was raised in the church and its traditions if I may say. Not to offend anyone but the world's view of the future has really changed as we go forward with life. I fear for the generations to come. If its only getting worst how was is yet to come.
Piece of mind, life is a journey you are your own self leader. Guide yourself to the right path. The choice is yours and yours only. Anyone else like parents are there either to teach you a lesson and show you a way to avoid the mistakes.