Relationships/late night thoughts

what kind of relationship do we really deserve? Have you ever gotten to the point where you ask yourself that question? well today I have come to answer that question and hopefully get other opinions on it. At the moment I wrote this, I had just talked to an ex potential boyfriend cutting him off from ever becoming one just from a repetition of things he does that annoy and can't be tolerated in my book. now most of you might start thinking why am going hard on a guy that you're not dating? Because I like to know them very well in different scenarios before putting myself in a hot sit. I'm all about the friendship first before anything else rule.

story time. so it started out like this, a girl walks into Walmart, a man stops her gives her a compliment then asks for her number after a few awkward lines of conversation. girl doesn't think the man is handsome for her taste but also does not rudely make him feel rejected. The girl observes every little aspect from the way he talks to the way he opens the door for the lady at the door. girl sees his nice car even thou he doesn't know she sees her. Girl goes home, boy texts girl they start talking, girl realizes the boy is legit qualified as a man she wants in life but the only thing is, she is not attracted to him. 

reality check! girl starts thinking how this is happening, how he can be so perfect but miss that one thing, she start discouraging herself, her goals, standards. Its the middle of the night and she can't sleep then she gets a text from the guy she was talking to who definitely has the looks and the charm but nothing else she wants a man to have yet she tries to give this douche bag a chance and leave the not so attractive guy with a well put together live (shit together) a chance. 

Girl started thinking putting pieces together and realizes her life goals missions people she wanted to be surrounded with have changed. She then starts asking herself all these questions about life, relationships and the fucking future she had dreamt of. since she mainly focused on relationships from all that realization, she dumps mr good looks with no future plans but still does not bring mr  unattractive with a bright future to board. 

Although this might be a sad turn out, girl realizes the ppl that she surrounded herself with had affected the bright future and goals she was chasing. She had just slowly settling down for less until mr unattractive came by and opened her eyes to what she could still get to achieve. 

in this case, we are talking about a girls whose standards were so high and well set but the people she surrounded herself with had low standards or were starting not to care so much for them that she also  fell into the pressure to follow the crowd. It was until she got a rude awakening of the situation she was getting herself into and that whatever she had before could still be as she wanted that she got back on track. Even thou it feels like she is now back to zero, its better than where she was headed to settle below zero.

it might sound like a metaphor... my brain does this at night. comment down if you ever feel this way or its just me stuck in the struggle.

5 HOT ACTORS IN THEIR 40s

ROBERT DOWNEY 48yrs 

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SNOW TIME FUN

Hellooooo youuu yea you reading this, where are you? do you see snow or are you in a warm climate? if you're in the warm weather, lucky you but for the rest of us stuck with rain and snow here is how to get by.

1. Oder a bunch of movies,  or get on Netflix 
   
2. Get in your most comfy pajamas or leggings & a baggy shirt
3. If you're of age some wine is good if not mix up a your favorite juice lol water is fine
4. Gather your sibling for a movie marathon or by yourself 
5. If you don't like movies, get on youtube and type in whatever you're in the mood for 
6. Funny videos are usually the best to get your mind out of this world 
7. My advice watch comedies like Kevin Hart- all the laughing will be your exercise and will keep you warm 
8. Order pizza or Chinese or for a healthier choice cook, but for me this is my lazy day usually so a quick sandwich will do. 
   
9. litle Antony's Pizza
10. Actually don't order pizza cause you don't want anyone driving and maybe dying on the road just for pizza unless you know the roads are clear. 
11. People who film, this is the best time to, the sky is bright the snow has this natural white color balance
12. online shopping- ebay, amazon  

THERE IS A LOT YOU COULD DO! Here is what I did yesterday when we got 10 inches of snow. 

The snow stopped at 7am in the morning when I was waking up, sike I woke up at 10am. Didn't have work so it was almost ok. My bros got up and went snow shaveling. This is the time they rack up on money. They hustle like they are grown ups man. It's crazy! They made almost $300 together just the 2 of them in 3hrs. when they got home at 10, they woke me up to take them to get food and the little one wanted to activate his phone. since am the kind older sister took him to Walmart  then Walgreens then to Little Antony's Pizza then went back home with chunk food to do the soda challenge which I need to edit and put it on youtube. 

What do you guys do on snow days or free days in the weekday aways from school????